Ok so that is way oversimplifying the situation. In actuality - God asked me to do something a few months back. It was sort of frightening and sobering all at once but very clear, his instruction: the reason you are thinking and praying so much for this person is because they need your forgiveness. You have forgiven them and so it should be no big deal to reach out to them, He seemed to say to me in my daily quiet time at 5:10 am. Because of the hour - I'd seriously been thinking I was delusional and imagining His request. But then it came at other times of the day when I stopped to give Him space and pray.
He was telling me to reach out to someone who'd recently hurt me. Someone who had betrayed my friendship and trust and I am not going to lie - I flat out did not want to do it. I rationalized at every point, reasons why that could not possibly be God's will.
Last Sunday - I stopped fighting and embraced this destiny and today chose His way instead of my own. In fact - I prayed constantly that He'd join us for lunch and that He'd speak more than me, that He'd show up and give grace if the person wanted forgiveness. Funny - they did not actually say they were sorry nor did they own completely their error - but the sheer humility and sorrow for what they'd done was clear and I extended the grace.
Obviously - I will never know what Jesus feels when we come to Him - broken and afraid, empty and sorrowful but I do know how I felt when I reached across the table and extended myself to comfort the person who had hurt me so just a few months back.
I felt whole. I felt as though the work that God has been doing to help me move on and be stronger was a little more complete because I listened to Him.
All parties involved in this situation felt the same relief today - freedom from the bondage of unforgiveness and conflict - all because I listened to Him.
I love that.
If God is calling you to something today - do not wait - do it immediately and if you feel you can't do it immediately - ask Him to strengthen you to do it sooner, rather than later.
You will not regret it.