Because I lost it.
Yep, full on yelling, angry frothing mad - loud Denise appeared tonight and just ruined the ending to our otherwise happy weekend. Now - something you must know about me - I am one to right the wrongs and right away. I have apologized and vowed to work on it - again - not an empty promise. I will immediately add it to my ever growing list of the self-development issues to work on starting now.
Now as I decompress and start to prepare for my week - a few things came to mind:
One - "You were provoked"
Two - "My goodness - how much more could you actually take......"
Three - "You did well on the first five crappy things that happened - give yourself a break..."
Four -" ________ deserved it, after all ___ has not done _______ or ________ and you have been _________.
All of the above may be true but each statement is an excuse for me not being my best tonight. Who ever wants to be almost good enough? We want to be our best as often as possible and I was not earlier and guess whose fault that is?
Mine and mine alone.
SO - the next time you fail to be your best (whether it be at work with that annoying person who speaks to you in the condescending voice or when you are with your significant other who is just clueless at times ) - do me and everyone around you a favor - own it and move on.
Don't waste one minute rationalizing less than stellar behavior - own it. Apologize. And most importantly - understand why you go there - to that nasty place and figure out how to return less often.